Leg ulcer update. Using medi-honey. (Images included)

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I have written a post before about using medi-honey on my leg ulcer but I never really went into too much detail about the dressings. so first I would just like tell you some info about them. There are so many benefits from using medi-honey. These are the best ones and the reasons I decided to try honey again.

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  • Antibacterial – Every wound has bacteria living on the surface of the skin and when this bacteria starts to take over that’s when you get an infection. These dressings keep the bacteria under control.
  • Debridgement – This is the term used for removal of dead skin. Due to the high sugar in the honey dressings, it breaks down the dead skin and make it easier to remove.
  • Anti-inflammatory – Open wounds have high Ph levels which cause inflammation. The dressings have a low Ph level, once applied over the top of the wound it works with your body to lower the Ph level and in turn reduce the inflammation.
  • Eliminates odour – Some wounds leak quite a lot and can give off an awful smell, The honey dressing reduce the amount of leaking and the smell.
  • Immune stimulating – All the other element working together, kick starts your bodies own natural anti-bodies to heal the wound.

My leg ulcer has responded really well to the medi-honey. I’ve been using it for just under 2 weeks now and nearly half of the slough ( Dead skin) has softened enough that I’ve manually been able to remove it.

This treatment is really not good for the faint hearted, it’s so painful, it feels like someone has a blow touch on my leg, at the same time a hundred bees are stinging me. It hurts like this because it’s my bodies reaction to the sugar and quick change of the Ph level. (It may not affect other peopel like this, I’ve not really spoke to anyone else that has used medi-honey) I’m really not good with pain, this will normally lasts couple of hours before it settles down but it is worth putting up with the pain because I know it’s doing a really good job.

The images below were taken 12 days apart and you can see a huge reduction in the amount of yellow dead skin that is on top of the wound. The top image was taken on July 27th and the bottom image was taken on August 8th. I have been changing the dressings every 2/3 days. I also wear a compression stocking over the top of these dressings, this helps the fluid in my leg return back up to my heart instead of pooling in my ankle.

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I know this is not a subject a lot of people are interested in and many people don’t want to see these pictures but it has taken a lot for me to open up to the world about what’s going on with my leg and it would be really great to hear back from the people who are reading this post. If you have any questions I am happy to answer them or if you have an opinion on anything involved with my leg, I would really like to hear from you.

You can leave me a comment below or contact me via my Facebook page @limpingmum

I also have an Instagram and twitter account.

xx

I don’t want to be in pain any more! 

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In the dictionary pain is defined as….

PAIN (Noun)

Highly unpleasant physical sensation caused by illness or injury.

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Pain is so much more personal than that. People feel pain in so many different ways and for so many different reasons.

If you follow my blog you will know why I am in pain but I haven’t really explained the pain on it own.

I have previously  written a post about my painful morning routine. If you haven’t read it you can find it here. Within that post it tells you what I do in the mornings and what tablets I take, I briefly talk about the pain but not in very much depth. So here goes starting from my mornings which is when I’m in most pain.

The pain that runs through my body every morning is so intense that sometimes I wish the surgeons would cut my leg off! I hate going to bed at night because I know the pain that is coming the next morning.

From the moment my eyes open I feel the pain, it hurts the most when I have to get up and walk. Over night my tendons seize up and I have to physically move my foot to loosen them up, doing this sends shooting pain through my leg. When I first had to do this it would make me instantly cry but I have got used to it now and no longer start my day off by crying. wp-image-450396541

During the day I go through different stages of pain. I get burning pain which feels like someone is holding a match on my leg. I get pricking pain which feels like someone has a safety-pin and is stabbing me over and over again. I get a cramp like feeling 3/4 times a day and pins and needles to go with it.  My leg muscles ache 90% of the time. and I get throbbing pain that comes and goes like waves.

Suffering with chronic pain not only affects me physically it affects me mentally. Dealing with pain on a permanent bases is a very lonely place to be, it separates me from the rest of my family, It beats me down and makes me mentally weak. At first it makes me feel upset and wallow in self-pity, then I’m angry and after that I feel motivated to get something done to heal, to stop the pain but when that fails the depression starts to creep in. I have been through this emotional cycle so many times in the last 3 years that I’ve learnt to just accept how I’m feeling and to just ride it out.

Being in chronic pain means I have to take numerous medications that I know are effecting my health and my body but without them I can’t function. They put my kidneys at risk because they have to work harder to clear all the toxins from my body. I have to take extra tablets to make sure I don’t suffer stomach ulcers from the medication.wp-image-1928569943

Being in pain stops me doing so many things as a mum and the things I can do make me so tired because I have to fight the pain at the same time. A simple walk to the park can cause me so much pain the next day because I’ve overworked my tendons. Just trying to keep on top of my housework takes me nearly all day and completely tires me out. Being in pain is exhausting because no matter what I’m doing its always there eating away at me.

When I go to bed at night, I would love to crawl under the duvet and drift peacefully off to sleep but that doesn’t happen either, I have to take painkillers just so I can lay flat without having any throbbing pain through my muscles as they are trying to relax. It takes me what feels like forever to fall asleep because I end the day feeling stressed out and worrying about what the next day will bring.

I don’t want to be in pain anymore, I’ve severed my time, I’m shattered and I just want a break. I don’t want to keep pumping my system with all these medications, I want to get back to my old self, I want to be happy again, I want the doctors to find some miracle dressings and miracle cure that can help me heal and make it all go away!

xx

My painful morning routine.

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Mornings are always the hardest time of day for me, it’s when im in the most pain and in the most foul mood. I am not a morning person and I don’t think I will ever be a morning person.

I have an alarm set for 6am but most days I am up between 5-6am without my alarm. It would be great to say that I jump out of bed feeling fresh as a daisy, make my way down stairs feeling great and pop the kettle on…. Well that’s not gonna happen.

I have to spend the first 5-10 minutes after waking, flexing and stretching the tendons in my ankle because over night they have seized up and hurt like hell. I can then get out of bed, try to hobble quietly past my childrens rooms and venture down the stairs, Most mornings i’m in that much pain I have to go down the stairs on my bum. By the time i’m down I really need a strong coffee.

morning-819362_640I love a really dark roast coffee first thing in the morning, I take my first round of tablets with it and I find the stronger the coffee the quicker the tablets kick-in.  (It may be just in My head but hey, a lot of thing are these days. lol) My first round of tablets are Omeprazole, to protect my stomach, vitamins, added  minerals, my contraceptive pill and then finally my first painkiller of the day is Naproxen. These are an anti-inflammatory drug that helps my tendons, so that is 5 tablets within the first 30 minutes i’m awake.

By now the dogs are starting to get restless as they want to go out in the garden. I grab my coffee, let the dogs out and have my first cigarette of the day. (YES I know this is bad for me, YES I know I should really give up and i’ve tried a few times but with everything else going on I just cant do it right now)

It’s then time to take round two of my tablets, I take three Gabapentin tablets and then head back upstairs to wake up the children.

My older children have learnt mornings are not great for me and try to help as much as they can.

toast-1077984_640Breakfast is next and to do this I have to sit on the top of our bin because I can’t stand up in one place for long. After they will get themselves dressed without much fuss. (Thankfully, my middle daughter used to be a nightmare to get dressed but now she’s getting older its getting easier)

We have a wall poster of their morning routine that they follow which is really helpful.

After they will go brush their teeth and wash their faces, the last step is to double-check their bags to make sure they have everything they need for the day.

My eldest rides his bike to school and I am lucky enough that my hubby is here to take my middle daughter to school. I would love to do the school run everyday and I know my daughter would love me to pick her up, its something I want to work on for her next year in school.

I like to walk my children to the door and give them a kiss goodbye every morning. My son will always say ‘Stay there mum, it’s ok’ but I always make an effort to see them out in the mornings.

medical-1905067_640At this point I take my third round of tablets if I need them. I use my co-dydramol as a back up if my pain is too bad. I don’t always need them, it’s just when i’m having a bad day or I have walked too much the day before.

After the children go to school it’s mine and Ellas turn to get washed, dressed and ready for the day.

This is around 9.30am now and my tablets have fully kicked in and I start to feel kind of normal and I’m able to do normal things again like laundry, hovering and playing games with Ella.  For the rest of the day I try to keep on top of the housework and keep Ella busy with games and activities.

If you liked this and want to see my evening or cleaning routine please let me know.         (These tend to be less painful)

xx

 

 

 

Leg ulcer update – Images included

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I’m feeling the pain of being an injured parent. 

Last Friday I went to my daughters school summer fayre with my mum. It was great. They had face painting, tattoos, bouncy castle, treasure hunt, tombola, cake sale and lots of transitional fayre games. Half way round I was starting to feel the strain on my leg and was so grateful that my mum was there to help me with the children and all the things they wanted to do.

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I knew I would be in pain by going but I really didn’t want my children to miss out.

The next day I was in an unbelievable amount of pain. I had done so much walking the ulcer had started weeping and now had got stuck to the dressings and as walked it was pulling at the surrounding skin. My tendons were completely shot, every step I was taking I had shooting pain going straight up my leg. All the muscles in my good leg were aching because I was limping so much and using that leg for support.

Normally my leg does not cause me this much pain, I have been to the childrens school event before and not had this much pain. I changed the dressing that night and instantly I knew something was not right . It was really weepy and hurt more than normal. As it was Friday I had to wait two days to get a doctor’s appointment. It felt like the longest weekend ever.

Monday came around, I went to the doctors and it was confirmed I did indeed have an infection.wp-image-95502347

When I get an infection it affects my whole body, the pain reaches level where the morphine doesn’t touch it, it makes me feel like I have been hit with the flu and ache all over.

I was given a 14 day course of antibiotics and I was really hoping they start working quickly. I hate feeling like I cant be a proper mum and because the hubby had to step up and take on all the parenting, our house ends up being a complete mess.

It’s now Wednesday and the antibiotics are starting to kick in, I don’t feel as achy and miserable today, im hoping they carry on doing their job because I really want to start getting back to normal.

At the moment it seems to be one step forward and two steps back. This is the picture I took this morning, It has stopped leaking so much and it’s not all over yellow now. The dressings you can see are two iodine patches( The orange squares) and a DryMax padding. These seem to be helping and they are not sticking to my leg either. wp-image-850800991

I’m hopeful that I will regain them two steps and maybe move forward another one but who knows what will happen, I can never predict how it will look or how I will be feeling when I wake up. some days are good and some are bad, I just take everyday as it come now.

Leg ulcer progress! (Images included)

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Around two weeks ago my husband saw a video about an amazing product. It’s was an Aloe Vera emergency spray.

The man in the video had a wound on his foot, he sprayed the Aloe Vera on it every day, let it dry and then redressed the wound. The progress was amazing. After 16 days of using this spray the wound had healed!!

On a whim, my husband brought some from eBay. It cost £20 for a 500ml bottle. A week later it had arrived!

I had nothing to lose. I’ve tried pretty much all other dressings and treatments.

I get really nervous about trying new things on my leg. It makes me feel quite vulnerable because I just don’t know how it will affect me or if it will make my leg worse. I was quite sceptical about the whole thing to be honest. If this was the miracle spray it has been made out to be, why has no-one every mentioned it before!

Day 1. Take all the old dressings off, give it a really good clean. Spray a generous amount Aloe Vera emergency spray  onto the ulcer… Shit! It stung like hell and felt like it was burning! At this point I started panicking thinking ‘OMG! What have I done? I’m gonna make this worse than it already is.’

Within a minute the stinging and burning stopped and my whole leg started to relax. It was a strange feeling. I hadn’t realised the muscles in my leg were so tense, the sensation of my whole leg relaxing was very new to me but it was a positive feeling so I knew straight away the spray had at least one benefit.

I had to leave my ulcer open in the air for 10 minutes but keep spraying it if it dried out. After 10 minutes I redressed it with a simple dressing and put my compression stockings back on over the top.

Day 2. It had started to work in just one day. The ulcer had started to level itself out and was slowing coming back up to normal skin level. It had gone a yellow colour but that was my bodies reaction to the spray, it was getting rid of all the old skin to make way for fresh new skin.

Day 3. My ulcer was looking better and better each day. I felt like I could cry as I could actually see progress happening. Pain wise the stinging and burning were the same when I first sprayed it on but I was starting to get used to the pain as I knew it would be over in a minute.

Day 4. I actually couldn’t believe how much progress and improvement I was seeing. It was changing so much over the days and I seriously couldn’t believe it was down to something so simple as Aloe Vera emergency spray. Nearly all of the yellow (old) skin had gone and I could start to see fresh new skin underneath also around the edges of the ulcer there was fresh pale (BRAND NEW) skin forming so this meant the edges were coming in and the ulcer was starting to get smaller.

I am feeling really optimistic about this product now and I’m looking forward to see more progress as the days go along. I am really hoping that is the miracle I’ve been looking to find for so long. I have to admit that all my worrying at the start was for nothing and I’m glad that I took that leap of faith and tried it.

The picture below is the most recent picture. This is day 7. There is not as much improvement as the first four days but it’s still looking good. The red skin on the outer edge is the blood coming back to the surface of the skin. The skin around the edges are still improving and slowly the edges are creeping inwards. Nearly all of the yellow skin has gone, however I have done quite a lot of walking over the past 2 days and gravity is not my friend. Even though I’ve change the dressings every day the fluid that my leg produces for protection has gathered at the bottom of the dressing and the bottom corner of the ulcer got deeper again due being too wet.

I have ordered my next bottle of the emergency spray, I know it’s a bit expensive but if I keep getting as much progress as I have already I am willing to pay that price over and over.

xx

Weekly leg ulcer update – Images of leg ulcer included.

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This week I’ve had some ups and downs. Its been quite a rough week as the weather has been so hot in the UK. Its been really nice having the warmer weather but we are just not used to it. Throughout all this heat I’ve still had to wear both layers of stocking. The underliner with enclosed toes and the main compression stocking on top. one day in to the hot weather, my leg decided it didn’t like it and would show me by swelling up twice its size. After speaking to a nurse, she suggested that I use a simple tubi grip with open toes instead of the underliner and keep the compression over the top. This seemed to help, the swelling went down and I could actually wear my flip-flops again.

I took this picture to show someone what it looked like with the tubi grip on. Before all of this I used to workout every day and have some nice shape to my legs but now they just look awful. The muscle on my good leg is twice the size and the muscle on my bad leg has just wasted away. Where I now walk with a limp even my ankles roll inwards.

 

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My legs with compression stocking on.

Now I have the tubi grip on it is less compression and it is actually a lot more comfortable as it’s not as tight. However now I have to change my dressings every few days.

Today is Wednesday, I changed my dressing on Monday and again tonight and I’m off to see the nurse on Friday.

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Mondays leg dressing change.

These images were taken under different lighting at different times of the day. The top one was late at night under my living room lights, the seconds was taken earlier under natural light.

This is the picture I took on monday when I changed the dressing. This was the second day without the underlining. I know this is still a horrid sight but for me this is great, this is the best it has looked in a long time. All of the red parts in and aroundthe edge of the ulcer is new skin growing.

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Wednesdays leg dressing change.

This is a picture of what it looks like tonight, fourth day without the underlining, I was really hoping to see great results and more improvement but it seems to have back tracked a bit. The build up of yellow is dead skin cells, so all that new skin has now gone. The skin around the edges are not as bright red as monday which means they have stopped producing new skin cells. I am in more pain tonight as well, normally the more intense pain from putting fresh dressing on goes away after about an hour with extra painkillers but tonight i’ve had all my painkillers and the intense pain is still there.

I’m at a loss of what I should be doing and it’s driving me crazy. I’ve tried nearly all dressings, I’ve been in 3 and 4 layer bandaging, I’ve been in the stocking with and without the underlining. one minute I can see really good results and then the next it backtracks.

I would love to go and see a private professional but they are just so expensive, we just can not afford it and we have been told that with some companies, you get better treatment from the NHS.

How This leg ulcer has effected me as a mum. 

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Being a mum is the best feeling in the world, it’s also the hardest thing to do in the world! Children are not born with a hand book and you just have to learn along the way.

Having the ulcer has robbed me of three years with my children! Nearly all the things I used to be able to do, I can’t do them any more. At the start it was the size of a 5p and it didn’t affect me to much.

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My youngest daughter was born 5 weeks early and we moved 4 week later, after that everything was about to change. I registered at a new doctors surgery and they jumped straight into a treatment plan for my leg.

 The treatments were full on and I started to limp because of the pain. As a result of the limp I now had tendonitis in that same foot. I was put on crutches and given more medication for it. I felt useless, I couldn’t unpack properly because it took me what felt like forever to move from room to room, I couldn’t stand for very long so couldn’t cook any meals. I felt like I was failing as a mum because I couldn’t do any of the simple tasks a normal mum could do.

As the months went by I started to give up and depression set in. I would get up in the mornings because I had to, not because I wanted to. I stayed in my pyjamas all day and I had given up doing any housework as it would take me a whole day to finish one room, then the children would come home and make a mess again. I didn’t see the point in doing anything.

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It was around that time when the pain was at its worst, I kept getting infections , I wasn’t sleeping and it felt like my leg was on fire 24 hours a day. My children really suffered during this stage. I wasn’t really engaging with them, I wouldn’t really play with them, I was there but not fully with them. I would lose my temper very quickly and after I would be riddled with guilt because I knew they actually didn’t do anything wrong. Quite a few times I would read school letters, pin it on the board and then forget all about it. If I didn’t have help from my husband and my mum I think even the childrens school work would have suffered.

As the pain and depression took over, I found myself looking on the internet about people who had lost one of their legs and how they coped, I wanted to go to the hospital and get them to cut my leg off. My leg being bad put a lot of pressure on all my family and if i couldn’t be the mum my children needed then sometime I would think they would all be better off without me. I felt like I had completely failed as mum, my children deserved better than I could give them.

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One night I sat was downstairs alone, crying because the pain had got so bad, I could have cut my own leg off at this point, when from nowhere a massive sence of warmth came across me and a thought came into my head, something my mum had said to me before…

I brought these children into the world and if I don’t look after myself, who will look after them!

From that night onwards, this is what I tell myself every time I’m feeling down. I went back to the doctors and got some stronger painkillers, I researched more about tendonitis and found some physiotherapy exercises to help get the movement back in my foot and I started to have fun and enjoy being around my children again. Within six months I was back on my feet and starting to feel a little back to normal.

There are still many things I can not do with my children, I can only do the school run once a week as that’s as much as my leg will take, if I take my children out for the day, the next day or so I’m in a lot of pain and have to rest more but now im looking for the things I can do, not the things I can’t do.

xx